O.k. David heres my letter you feel I should write you because we seem to have problems with words. Beginning my term here at friendships I wanted to find myself in humbleness and since I arrived I've found mostly its nothing like I thought I would be its just good intentions floating around some grasped some just intentions so progress in a dream land like port mercy has been difficult for me since I now know sin follows us even to the most lit places on earth. I try I fail I try harder I fail I get up broken and find the light that will mind all my wounds and when it does I've learned my lesson. This is how its always been with me I rise higher and fall lower than other people around me Its like I made a pact with the devil when I was young reading something as follows " I want to achieve greatness lucifer" says I. "so in each lesson I learn increase the the pain! Make it hurt so I shed the tears of pain so I may first be broken" says I. "make sure you don't forget to twist the dagger once inside" says I. " And through it all I will find Gods light to in time become who I am in him" says I. Then He says " you will be sitting next to me in the end my child for I will have my hands over your eyes when your sight is most crucial I will have my hands around your ankles when its your time to walk away and most importantly I will dig my claws so deep into you skull your thoughts will be imprints of my glory you will find comfort in this you will lay your morals down at my feet this I promise you" Our pact was simple and I feel signed in my mothers blood. nevertheless I want humbleness because I see the pride of my father in myself. I'm here in this place to learn a lesson I realize this and you are a tool in Gods shed I have no doubt of that. Through obedience I will find Gods love I know this I told you once I would try harder to change I haven't stop trying since then.
your point of view of me is just a "point of view" there are many others. To bad for you that you see me the way you do. It bothers me none for I know what I am made of and I know where I am in Gods sight. Right where he wants me. so I will follow the voice inside me I know as truth and you will follow yours. what else can we do but what's right?

p.s.

The world hangs on a delicate balance in which it rotates for us so that we may breathe its air and feel its warmth
I know very well the 3rd planet from the sun does not revolve around me. that is your point of view and simply that.
Its just humors me really that you have a mold (Biblical or not) in which you want to see me fit. In all of this adversity our diverse God
has his own ways for me and his own ways for you so I'll tell you this now since we've just begun
I will not turn into the kind of clay that molds! I cannot I will not be set until zion comes. take this p.s. as you will since we aren't relating
I don't expect you to take it how I mean it to be taken. in all harmony its mere philosophies.

May God peace be with you.

-Chanler McDonald

Was given a sign from on high
soft and yellow
she gently flew by me
uneffortly
and full of grace

i am profounded
another woundnt believe if i tryed
to explain the
mystical beauty of this creature
shes more than enough for me

Im completely free
but i yern to feel the cold grip of this chain
have a chance to be completely clean
but this stain feels my dreams

the pattern as driven me to see
the destiny you achieve when you just believe
im right.
just as you are.
two different lives
the same morals
proves to show!

we were wrong for so long
life decided to lift the vail
too show us the truth and the word s worth an open mind
i lack melody
intentionally
patterns are driving me too madness
its not what its all about
but its all you've ever wanted

i am moved to start a religion
or take a virginity
anything too
change a life forever
by an unforgetable act
nailed to the back of your mind
with a feather as his allie

ICHE ICHE ICHE ME!!!
I AM YOUR FLESH
FEED ME!!!!!

now that i think of it
my soft and yellow
was outlined in black

Closer to God are the ones in love.
but, Will our love not shake in our darkest hours?
Theres no room for fear in love
fears fungi bloom blossoms in the shady corners of our minds
unless every tiny crack is illuminated.
There is no room for fear in love.
Tired of just talk
shamed of just talk
actions limelight as been earned to move to the left
words shine now!
words like musical notes just float around
trying to form a melody of some sort
something worth remebering
instead they all fall to the back
when I earn a minset not of my own.

Will I learn before or after my fall?
times like these i seem to see the light
in times like these i seem to find a reason
for it all.

I know i'll be alright.
The love i share will not turn away in my darkest hours.
The love i share will still be there the morning after
and thats all i could ever need!

Focusing on the soil
Lapageria faced down
vines shine the green on the otherside
a question arises in me
weather in shame or training
which pebble placed the crick in your cricked neck
you've come a long way
i look at a face i saw differently yesterday
there is a part still missing
a lack of flow to the head
a rushing ruby blood red
fullfills you elsewhere
one rising sun will awake
the belief inside your wilted heart

when asked to speak your mind to me
swayed left to see
the breeze and how it moved me

speak
speak
speak

bullshhhh

means the World to me
this shhhh you speak

lips lie to the minds
who in fact
tell the tounge what he should have sung

lifes funning
when im looking at you.

i see the joke!

oh how BEAUTIFUL it is tonight.

all around I see the beauty God gives
swayed to the right
the moon shines his gift "light"

to my right
to my right
behind the moons light
i see "you"

A root without its soil

YOU will not grow like this my friend
never will you sprout a bloom.
plant the seeds you lack to produce
o.k
o.k
I get this.

it's still not right.
selfishly you walk tonight
meaningless you SPEAK to me
and a "JOKE" is what i recieve
from this Good Gracious God I Believe in

laying the ground
with the
W.O.P. (yeah)_
thats (me).

I'm off.
and its good for me cuase

i know

the moons goodbyes my sunrise.
words are the wave by which we ride around
I just sway through the day
always coming to the top
to watch the ones
i lay the ground for.

the suns farwells my time to heal
my time to just chill
call me selfish
but we must all be TRUE to ourselves.

love, I cannot live your life.
I am the only one here to live mine
we entwine,.
we entwine..

oh my minds mind thinks his mind is heavy.
Dear,Jesus
im spent.

hey, listen.

the sun is setting
my eyes are heavy
and im happy!

W.O.P
C.ToThe.McD.
hahaa
thats (me)
rep'in
the W.O.P